Dumb or Innocent?

I don't know what happens.But all of the sudden I remember embarassing moments back at elementary school.
The tears I showed him and entire class.
The things I did to make him look at me.
But I do realise something.
I thank him.Really.
Because if he wasn't there in my life.
I wouldn't change my shy personality into how I am today.
I wouldn't open my eyes to fashion like I am right now.
I wouldn't have many friends like I do now.(I used to be alone all the time.I always kept my head down)
So,thank you.
Although I couldn't reach you,although I couldn't be with you nor seen by you.
I guess,I'm thankful enough that I met you in the first place.
I thank enough that you realise I was exist.
It's sad really.
It's horrible that up till now.
You're still my number one.
But you..You already dated 8 girls back when we were at 6th grade.
That's why I always feel small near you.
Small in size too.LOL
Well.that's all I want to say.
Maybe if I succeed at what I am trying to do.
I will forget you.We will walk on a different path,won't meet each other for years.
What I mean by forget is that I won't cry everytime I see you.
But I promise I will never forget what I had with you.
Because no matter what happen in the future,I know that you will have a special space in my heart.
Deep deep inside.
Where no boys in this whole wide world can take it from you.
You are my first.
The first to make my heart beats 3 times faster,the first to make me happy everytime we talk,the first to make me shy,to make my face red,to make me cry,and to make me own the world when you invite me to your house.
^^

Go Away

Why did I see him when I wanted to forget about him?

A few days ago at PVJ I saw him at the parking lot.He was walking with his new friends while I was inside the car.

But my mom was there so I just acted cold and looked at him from the corner of my eyes.

Soon I regretted it.If only I had looked at him longer,I wouldn't have been crazy over him.

I walked around the mall over and over again until every corners I could find.

Then I saw someone who looks like him.

My sister said it was him.

But I didn't believe her.

I starred at him to make sure it was really him.

But his friends began to laugh at me as they pointed me.

Maybe their conversation was like,"Dude,there's a girl looking at you,"

I felt like I've lost my face so I quickly covered my self.

Other from that problem.

I am very thankfull that finally,after all this time,I could see him.

Although it was no longer than 2 seconds.

Anyway,

I've made a big decision that will change my future.

I don't know why I finally agreed and put all my courage,spirit,mind and body for this.

I just don't know if this is right.

I'll do my best and think of what will happen next later.

The most important is working hard,right?

One more thing

about Lee Soo Man.

I know I hate him.I really do.

Because what he did to H.O.T,DBSK,and Hankyung.

But I don't know what to say too.Because without him there wouldn't be H.O.T.

There wouldn't be DBSK

and there wouldn't be Super Junior,SHINee,SHINHWA,f(x) and SNSD(Though I don't really like them)

He's annoying but he's great.

It makes me hate him even more.

Because I am speechless.

I hate him but I thank him for making such a great bands that caused mania.

So..

I don't know.

I just don't know what to say.

Still don't like him.zzzz

LMAO^^

Oh,my.Tony,you're so cute.....

Jaejoooonnnng!!Changmin!!!
Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I can't believe this T________T

I can't believe this.I did some research about lee soo man and SM entertainment and figured out how scary the man is.
He...Only gave pennies every album H.O.T sold.
And after they disbanded.
Moon Hee Jun started solo career.
His first album sold 600.000 copies.
But SM decided not to support him anymore.
And he has to poured down all his money and savings for his second album.
Fans were sleeping in front of his house when one morning they saw his mother came out crying as she said,"Please.Please save my Hee Jun"
I don't if these rumours are true or not.
But one that I know.SM is a very scary place.
I mean the forum said that.
DBSK is like the next generation of H.O.T
The dancer..U-Know Yunho is like Jang Woo Hyuk
English speaker..Micky is like Tony
The cute one..the more you see him the more you'll like them...Xiah Junsu is like Lee Jae Won
Handsome face,nice voice..Hero Jaejoong is like Moon Hee Jun
The cute,amazing,and when you see him you got a feeling like you want to take care of him..Max Changmin is like Kangta.

The one who said this is currently 22 years old.
She was a member of H.O.T and she was quite active in the forum.So she knows many things.
She also said they still watch over the members until 8 to 9 years after they disbanded.

I got a feeling the forum was written in 2010.

Anyway,it also said that H.O.T's money was being used for Boa,SM's favourite child.
I wasn't a fan of Boa.But after I read this.
I feel like..
Geez...
It also said that Boa is quite bossy.

Anyway,H.O.T manager felt sorry and pitty the boys very much.
That's why he planned to pull out the boys out of SM.
But he was caught off and soon fired.
Now he is working for SIDUS.
He was also a manager of G.O.D
That's why SM hates G.O.D so much.

That's only a piece of Lee Soo Man's dangerousness.
Btw,I watched Strength of Love starring Kangta and Tony.
It was Hope song era.(I know since Tony played the song)
And it was a master piece.
Both of them are dying for.
So handsome.

Anyway,
I can't get my mind out of what happened to Hee Jun.
Lee Soo Man..
That guy just declared war to us,
H.O.T and DBSK fans.
Or should I say..
He had declared war to us A LOOOOONG TIME AGO!

I present this post to 'Dedicated to H.O.T'
Which is H.O.T's eternal fans.
Forever H.O.T!!VIVA!!!!